Sunday, November 18, 2018

Mother Daughter Retreat: Year 6


This last week Gracie and I honored our tradition of the Mother-Daughter Retreat at Eco-Justice Center in Racine, WI that began when she was 6 years old! This was our 6th Year! (You can see the chronicle of our other years here.)

This year was by far our best yet.

As we drove out on Sunday night, I was feeling unsettled. I should be working. Gracie should be in school. It cost so much to care for our animals while we are away.

I didn't voice any of this to Gracie, but she was feeling it too. I miss home. I hope Izzy is ok in the kennel. Mom, I almost asked to go home, I feel like we need to be home.

We fell asleep Sunday night offering prayers for a peaceful retreat and care over our house and animals while we were away.

We woke up Monday morning feeling refreshed. Quickly, I realized something really important. Gracie rarely gets all of me. This was 36 hours we set aside to give to one another. I had no other distractions. It was just Gracie and I, a pile of art supplies, and a load of trails to be explored.

There are loved ones in our lives that deserve us, all of us. It is the gift of self. I have to be really, really intentional to do this....

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reunited with the swing!

These Guinea Hens followed us every where, I think they wanted to play soccer


At the start of the trail




We have our adventurin' boots on


we 💗💗💗 rocks


watercolor painting


there is nothing like conquering the tree stump

our watercolor creations

there was a fair amount of crocheting, ukulele playing, and singing








Monday, November 12, 2018

#mondaymotivation



the sound of rushing water off in the distance

the view of newly naked trees and exposed nests built with mastery

the intense reds, yellows, orange - even brown

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Monday mornings I have a gift of free mornings. It's quite a challenge to keep the mornings free. In my mind it's an extra 4 hours that are easily filled up with the "need to do" things. 

But the last few Mondays I have held firm. Free to be - alone in the woods with my dog. I take deep breaths of fresh air; I listen to the singing birds, the krinkle of fallen leaves beneath my feet, the rushing water.  I think, I pray, I ponder. I hug my dog. 

As I type this, there is a twinge of guilt. It feels so luxurious to take an hour or two once a week of freedom. Then there is the other side of the coin of guilt - there are so many things I should be doing. 

Stop.

What does God want for me?

God wants my time. God wants my heart. God wants my happiness.

Two hours a week of time devoted to just be with him in His creation - there should not be and will not be any guilt. 

This is not a commitment to myself. This is a commitment to Jesus. I will be with you for two hours on Mondays - free unstructured time.  

This is my #mondaymotivation. What is yours?








Monday, November 5, 2018

Because baptism...

"Mom, if you could go back and choose to live in any time in history, what time would you choose?"

Me: Hmmm... I don't know, I have never thought about it

I would go back to Jesus' time.

This was another car conversation. It was brief. This is an observation of Gracie's desire to grow in understanding. 
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Last week marked two of my most favorite feast days. I am a person of superlatives, so that means, there are many feast days that are of great import to me. October 28, was our family's celebration of the 11 year anniversary of Gracie's adoption into the Body of Christ through Baptism. We typically mark this celebration by attending a one of the many beautiful historic churches in our Chicagoland area. 



The last few years Gracie has been very adamant that to mark this special day we go to Old St. Pat's downtown Chicago. It was a full weekend! She was away at camp for dance. Thank goodness Old St Pat's has an 8pm Sunday evening mass! 

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November 1: Feast of All Saints

Beloved:See what love the Father has bestowed on usthat we may be called the children of God.
1 John 3: 1


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At Mass for the Feast of All Saints, I was completely overcome. 

Gratitude

All of our Holy ancestors that have gone before us, laying the foundation, a road of holiness...

They answered their baptismal call to holiness, living a life set apart for Jesus.

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It is easy to be overwhelmed by the lives of the Saints.  They are such extraordinary humans! Their holiness is unattainable!

In reality, a life of holiness is a response. We respond daily. Many times not even intentionally. The response to this love freely given to us - that we may be called Children of God - is one of acceptance and action. I accept that Jesus loves me beyond my wildest dreams. I act out of that love. 

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 Gracie's Baptism Day
October 28, 2007




Basilica of the Sacred Heart, Notre Dame, Indiana
 Fr. Pat Gaffney and a naked baby... She was so mad!


She finally calmed down when given the Light of Christ

Gracie had quite a welcoming committee into the Body of Christ

Tuesday, October 9, 2018

Your Cosmic Task = The Body of Christ



"The laws governing the universe can be made interesting and wonderful to the child, more interesting even that things in themselves, and he begins to ask: What am I? What is the task of man in this wonderful universe? Do we merely live here for ourselves, or is there something more for us to do? Why do we struggle and fight? What is good and evil? Where will it all end?"
Maria Montessori, To Educate the Human Potential




A few weeks ago the Joliet Montessori Elementary & Adolescent communities held it's annual field study field trip. The students spend the day at a local forest preserve engaging in quadrant studies. This year in the afternoon the students were divided up into groups and given the task of building different kinds of shelters. This was a lesson in the Fundamental Needs of Humans. They were given a few guidelines: the shelter needs to be near fresh water and out of the way of the elements.

When I arrived to join for an evening potluck and bonfire I was met with a very excited Gracie: "Come and see our shelter! I want you to take a picture of it!"

So away we went tromping through the woods. 

 

I was completely impressed by the structure Gracie and her group built. Not only was it a super enticing hideout. (I wanted to bring my tarp, sleeping bag, and a book and snuggle in) But knowing that these students worked joyfully in chilly and damp conditions all day was admirable.

I asked Gracie, "tell me about your group."

She began rattling off names and telling me what each member of her group was good at. Then she interrupted herself, "you know? It was great! We were all good at different things! That's why we were able to accomplish so much."

"Wow! Gracie! That's an amazing discovery. That's how the Body of Christ works!"

With a big fat smile, she responds, "yep!"

Tuesday, September 25, 2018

Just Be



When was the last time you spent 24 hours of uninterrupted time with the one you love? Or one of the someones you love?

24 hours of uninterrupted time? It sounds ludicrous! How? When? This is not possible.

Humans in the 21st century - modern times - are skilled at filling every minute of the day with activity, obligation, tasks. And we are always struggling against the grind that we have set up for ourselves.

I find that I am always looking for a window out!

The window came this last week. Gracie was to be at camp for the week. The house is empty of interns and guest moms. I just needed to enlist a small army of people to care for the myriad of animals that live at Nativity House. (a house of hospitality not just for humans!)

Tuesday after work we jumped in Rosie (our red prius) and headed north to Racine, WI, Eco-Justice Center. It just so happened that we were there 7 years to-the-day! of our very first visit to their hermitage. Our treks to the one room cabin in the woods began as 24 hours or a full weekend - if we were lucky - to get away and prepare in prayer for the project that would become Nativity House. It has now become a whole family affair. Once or twice a year Justin and I go. Once or twice a year Gracie and I go.

This time Justin were blessed to have a full 48 hours of time away. We spent our time reading, hiking, exploring the southern Wisconsin coast, drawing, writing. It was time to just be in each other's presence. There was no elaborate plan, there wasn't non-stop deep conversation, it wasn't all about romance.

The task at hand was to  just be. 

On our jaunt up the coast of Lake Michigan coast we stumbled upon a brewery: St Francis Brewery. Yum!


we have to make time, take time, reclaim time

to just be in each other's presence

your spouse, your child, your mother, your father










Thursday, September 20, 2018

What do you do for living?

How did God create 40000000 things?

What do you do for a living?

I do a lot of things. Aside from being a wife and mom, farmer, Catholic Worker -  I am a catechist. And it just so happens I get paid to do it because it comes with a title, director.

But really the question is:

What do you do for living?

One thing that I do quite regularly is meditate with children on the mysteries of our God in the atria of the Catechesis of the Good Shepherd.


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   #3  The atrium is a community in which children and adults live together a religious experience which facilitates participation in the wider community of the family, the church and other social spheres.
  • The atrium is a place of prayer, in which work and study spontaneously become meditation, contemplation and prayer.
From Sofia Cavalletti's 
32 Characteristics of the Catechesis of the Good Shepherd

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This week we have been meditating on the three main events of God's plan for Salvation: Creation, Redemption, and Parousia.  

After the presentation of the Fettucia (an impressionistic lesson on the the mystery God and time) the mediatation question was What questions do you have for God?



Did you create me because you love me?

How did you make me? How did you make animals? No one is God's mother. How did God be made?


How did God create a rainbow?


Monday, August 6, 2018

Enamored by Life

I was walking a few steps behind my daughter and niece in Muir Woods National Monument and we were coming up on Cathedral Grove. There was a sign asking for a respectful silence when walking through. I heard Gracie, "shhhh. let's listen to the forest." Both girls paused and looked up. Ellia whispers, "wow, so big"

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We had to wake up at 6 am to observe the tide pools. It was an early morning and not everyone in our party was excited about it. We treked down to the ocean at low tide, the reason for our early morning excursion. There we found an exposed reef were we could observe amazing sealife. At every turn Gracie and Peyton oohed and aaahed...





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Justin, Gracie and I just got home from a 10 day jaunt in the San Francisco Bay area. We have a Wozniak Family tradition of annual family vacations. This year it was 7 adults and 5 children (ages 1-11.)

The theme for this year's family vacation: full.

On this vacation I found myself taking pause and catching my breath. There were so many moments of awe and wonder. Whether it be two children gasping in awe at entering the Cathedral of the Assumption in San Francisco, two children so excited to be holding a piece of the Golden Gate Bridge, 3 uncles joyfully kicking around the soccer ball with a rowdy bunch of kiddos, Grandma sharing her love of biology and eco-systems with her beloved grandchildren, laughter of playing cousins while we prepare dinner, the sense of smallness at observing 1000 year old trees...

The list goes on and on.

With a group of children ages 1-11 there were also many moments of chaotic hysteria. It's only natural. That is family life. We take it all. We make the most of it. We cherish the whole package.

I know these are graced moments.

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We must practice being enamored by life.  It is imperative if we are to make it through the tough times.









Monday, July 30, 2018

Unlikely Friendship: My Solidarity Story

Gracie engages one of our Nativity House infants - friendship



We were young and impressionable, wide-eyed and eager to serve.

During our on the ground training we were given an intense over view of Catholic Social Teaching. We were given a new worldview that was to prepare us for our work in the trenches.  We were to be working with the poor and marginalized: the mentally ill, the homeless, child-survivors of abuse, the addicted.

Edwin, Frankie, Mary, Pam, Brenda, Jim: just to name a few of those we worked alongside, those we served, those who served us.

We got to know them. We listened to their stories. They listened to ours. We learned each other’s likes and dislikes.  We exchanged knowledge, taught each other things. We celebrated each other’s joys and triumphs. We mourned each other’s losses.

Does this sound familiar?

It really is as simple as it sounds: friendship and relationship.

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Justin and I lived for a year as Jesuit Volunteers in California in 2000-2001. We were steeped in Catholic Social Teaching, service to the poor and intentional community living.  The friendships formed and lifestyle lived that year left a lasting impression.

After that formative year we committed to continue this lifestyle. Reality quickly set in.  We would talk about our goals of living with and serving the poor and intentional community and people who nod their heads in agreement and quickly change the subject.

It was a few years later, I was talking with my dad about our dreams of living out the Gospel: living intentional community and living with and serving the poor and how it was frustrating because largely our societal system made it completely unconducive. My dad sympathetically responded, “Venus, your intentions are good. But you are young and idealistic. You will see you have to make some ideological compromises.”
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Eighteen years later, we continue the quest. We live in a small intentional community rooted in Catholic Social Teaching, prayer, and hospitality to expectant mothers. We are steeped in issues facing abortion-minded single mothers on a daily basis. In the three years that we have been offering hospitality we have become friends with 5 expectant mothers that have struggled with unplanned pregnancies, homelessness, and lack of support. Through these relationships I have come to honestly understand the difficulty in making the bold and courageous choice to bring life into the world.

Without these relationships I would have no idea just how courageous these women are. This is the work of Nativity House. At Nativity House we are an intentional Catholic community and house of hospitality for expectant mothers. Our house is situated on a small farm with chickens, goats, dogs, cats and a large farm garden where 8 families  come weekly to work the land and nurture their families with organic produce and community. Nativity House is all about community, friendship, relationship. In the grand scheme of things it was easy to get this started - the Christian life. Doing things differently than the status quo: we strive to live out the Gospel as those early Christians did.

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Idealist? Yes.

Compromise my beliefs as a Catholic to fit into the societal norms? No, thank you.


In today’s American society it is pretty clear that I need to take a side – one of two. How unfortunate. What I have learned about the honest struggle to live the Gospel is that one of the two sides available to me is not adequate. I will never fit into the socio-political system. I will never identify as a Republican or Democrat; nor do I want to. Both are sorely lacking when it comes to representing anyone who is striving to live the Gospel.

We as Christians are called to transform society; or as Peter Maurin said “create a new society within the shell of the old.” The first step to doing this is friendship and relationship.This is why Nativity House exists. One way we can answer to the new within the shell of the old.

We do not have to choose one of two sides. We can stand firm in the Gospel. We are creating a new society within the shell of the old. And finally, there is a group of people who are standing firm - The American Solidarity Party. Finally out of this poor political system of two lackluster sides that are the main undercurrent of American Society we have an honorable third choice. 

We are a party that seeks the common good, on common ground, through common sense. We believe in the sanctity of human life, the necessity of social justice, our responsibility to care for the environment, and promotion of a more peaceful world....
 This sounds like a new society in the shell of the old to me. We just need more people join the work in unlikely friendship.  

Will you be the one? And will you bring your friends?

Tuesday, July 24, 2018

Mesmerized by Fireflies

The smell of fresh cut hay.

A doe sneaks out into the meadow.


The horizon is ablaze with a kaleidoscope of color.


My way is illumined by the flicker of fireflies.



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A few weeks ago I was gifted with the time for 5 straight days to take a 30 minute walk each day. Talk about gift! These 30 minute days were times of pondering life and all its wonders; in particular I was pondering lifestyle choices.

I have been pondering why we have chosen this lifestyle and what goes into the decision making process of lifestyle choices. 


The choices that I have made make it such that a walk down my street at dusk means sights of a typical country lane. My choices have also made it such that 30 minutes of alone time in one lump sum is a rare gift,  nevermind 5 days in a row. 



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For God formed man to be imperishable;the image of his own nature he made him.
Wisdom 1: 13-15

This was the first reading for Sunday's Mass back on July 1. It's never a coincidence that the daily readings coincide with what God has put on my heart. These words from the book of Wisdom read beautiful, harsh, whimsical, and challenging.


When reading and re-reading I wonder, why do more people not live as if these words are true?


I am a spitting image of God. So are you. So is your child, your neighbor, the person who honked at you on the commute, the coworker that drives you batty, etc. 


We are all bearers of God. 


Does my lifestyle truly exhibit this fact?

Monday, July 16, 2018

Nativity House: the outcome is always abundance...

Life at Nativity House has it's ups and downs. Community living and serving expectant mothers in need are two cornerstones framed within the context of deep faith. 

Framed within the context of deep faith... This is what makes community living and serving expectant mothers possible.

Quite frankly, living and working at Nativity House is hard work. Living with other people - not immediate family - is not for the faint of heart. Living with and serving those in need is messy.

So why do we do it. 


The Gospel offers us the chance to live life on a higher plane but with no less intensity: life grows by being given away, and weakens in isolation and comfort. Indeed, those who enjoy life most are those who leave security on the shore and become excited by the mission of communicating life to others (Pope Francis, The Joy of the Gospel #10)


When you commit to sharing life - to a life of Encounter - Every - Single - Time - God meets our weakness, our shortcomings, our doubt, our worry, - with abundance. 

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One example of this abundance is this year's CSA members. Our membership was low pretty late in the game. We just kept praying that God would send us new members for the garden. And then we trusted (that's the hard part.) Then, as if coming out of the wood work, God provided some wonderful new families.  

And one of those new families? A bee keeper! Erik is a wealth of knowledge in the garden. And he joyfully shares his love of beekeeping with us! This weekend we had our first honey harvest. Abundance.


Opening the hive! The bees filled one whole super of 10 frames in one week!

Annemarie is suited up and ready for honey harvest action


20 frames of honeycomb ready for processing

Rolling the frames to release the honey